I am a bit speechless in the place God has me in right now. The things God has asked me to partake in. I am tempted to listen to the lies which satan tells me and believe that I won’t be able to do a good job at this. That I am not made for this work. I recently began a new internship at Mars Hill Church. I church that I am absolutely blessed to call my home. I am working in the Biblical Living department which is where we do all of our care. This is quite a big role and I am filling big shoes as the girl that I am taking over for is absolutely beautiful. I trust that God put me here because He has big plans of using me in His story but that can also be an overwhelming thought. I mean, when we think about how huge God is(which really isn’t even possible for us) and then to think of surrendering our lives for Him to have His way with us. I am not scared that the things He asks me to partake in will not be for my best interest. I am more so fearful of how extravagant they will be(in a good way). When I do think deeply about this fear, I realize I really don’t have anything to be fearful of. I am under the protection of my creator, my ally, of the God who loves me and truly does want the best for me. And the God who actually knows what the best for me is(certainly not always what I think it is). God has been so good to me as he works on my heart. I am so humbled at the fact that God has a hold of me at the young age of 21.
More and more God has opened up my heart and mind to truly trust Him with my life. My whole life. Surrendering all of my plans to Him and allowing Him to lead me to the places He wants me to go. When I say this, I am willing to give up any desires I may have. This heart change is exactly that. A heart change. This is not something that I did my self or something that I worked hard enough to get to. None of that! This is directly related to God opening my eyes to the understanding that there is nothing more sweet and satisfying than freedom in Christ. Nothing. It is so much better to be what God asks us to be than to be what YOU always wanted to be. God asks us to be servants for Him. To bring glory to God’s name! This is the reason why we can not try and manage our sin, walk the line of it and have one foot in and one foot out. If this is what you do, then you have not surrendered to Jesus. You have not given your life to him just as He gave his life for you. You start with reading your bible. Not for any checklist requirements but because we are to be filling our lives with truth. With the word of God. We are to be praying that God may change our hearts into the people He wants us to be. We are to be praying the bold prayer of “may Your will be done.” We are the children of the Holy God and creator of everything, how can we not surrender our lives to Him on a daily basis?!
